Friday, March 8, 2019

Scared Sights/Alternative Vacations?

How to visit Lake Lovely Water in remote British Columbia

LAKE LOVELY WATER is a remote alpine lake tucked into the Tantalus Mountain Range of British Columbia, at an altitude of 3,800 feet. Located just outside of Squamish, north of Vancouver, the lake and its surroundings are one of the most beautiful areas in the region.

The Grand Gathering, St. Lawrence River, Sainte-Flavie, Quebec

More than 100 life-sized stone and wood figures stare out at the St. Lawrence River from the beach or keep watch in the water itself.  Their tall, narrow bodies and the play of light and shadow on their faces give them a haunting presence. Canadian artist Marcel Gagnon originally created the figures as studies for his paintings and now they are the main attraction at the Centre d’Art Marcel Gagnon, in Sainte-Flavie.
Getting there: The Centre d’Art Marcel Gagnon  is about three-and-a-half hours from Quebec City on the south shore of the St. Lawrence River.
The Grand Gathering, St. Lawrence River, Sainte-Flavie, Quebec

Pingualuit Crater Lake, Pingualuit Provincial Park, northern Quebec

Pingualuit means pimples in English – an odd word to associate with a lake that looks like a huge gemstone. It is also said to have the purest freshwater on earth. The jagged-edged crater surrounding the lake was formed by a meteorite over 1.3 million years ago. The lake is in Pingualuit Provincial Park, a popular place for camping in summer and winter. It is quite remote but you will still find comfortable bunk beds, showers and even Wi-Fi.
Getting there: Travel by air from Montreal, Ottawa or Quebec to Kuujjuaq and then fly on to Kangiqsujuaq. From there, take a helicopter or Twin Otter into the park.
Pingualuit Crater Lake, Pingualuit Provincial Park, Nunavik, northern Quebec

Mount Shasta -Mt. Shasta, California

Part of the Cascade Range in northern California, Shasta is central to the Creation story for local Native Americans and remains a sacred place for them. They have lived there for 9,000 years and though their numbers have dwindled shockingly, descendants still conduct ceremonies in its honor. The towering extinct volcano, once an active part of the notorious Pacific Ring of Fire, stands over 14,000 feet. No other mountain on the continent has been ordained by so many groups with mystical significance. As with many Native American sacred sites, its spirituality has been adopted by contemporary belief systems. Buddhists built a monastery there with the belief that it is one of the Seven Sacred Mountains in the World. Many New Agers believe it to be a vortex emitting earth’s subterranean energy. More than a few believe it to be a refueling base for UFO’s. Some of it may seem sacrilegious, but in a way underline the beauty and power of a place whose beauty has been put here by a Creator for a higher purpose.
Mount Shasta, California

Devil’s Tower -Crook County, Wyoming

It is as much as 70 million years old. A stunning geological formation, from a volcanic eruption, it has been shaped and scarred by a millennium of erosion. Known in contemporary culture from the film Close Encounters of the Third Kind, some twenty Indian tribes have said to had close and sacred encounters with this natural beauty for thousands of years. It is also known as Bear Lodge and Bear tipi. There are many different legends of how it was created by the Great Spirit Legend. The crevices down its side are said to have been left by a bear sliding down in futility after his erstwhile victims found refuge on top. It was the first site declared a National Monument in 1906 and is still a place for Sun Dances, vision quests and other ceremonial customs. Its commanding presence juts out of the Black Hills looking down on its domain- does it have a supernatural power and in its mystery lies the questions by the grace of whom?
Devil's Tower, Wyoming

Bighorn Medicine Wheel -Bighorn National Forest, Wyoming

They are scarce, with only a hundred or so remaining set in starkly, spectacular, settings. medicine wheel’s are intensely spiritual, places that were made for worship. The Bighorn is the grandfather of all medicine wheels, though its 10,000 foot elevation makes it a daunting destination. Its intricate celestial significance is captivating. It’s a circle with 28 spokes, the number of days in the lunar calendar and a sacred number to many tribes. The spokes point to the rising and setting places of stars near and distant, the Sun at summer solstice, Rigel in Orion, and Sirius, the Dog Star (whose apogee in August gave rise to The Dog Days of summer) in Canis Major. Medicine wheels are the New World’s Stonehenge. Despite their name, they were not used for medical purposes. They should more appropriately be called ‘sacred hoops’ honoring the gods and seeking divine wisdom to guide them in every facet of tribal life.
Photo by: The Cut via Flickr

Crater Lake -Medford, Oregon

With a depth of 1,949 feet, Crater Lake is the deepest in the country and Top Ten worldwide. It is an underappreciated scenic gem with one-tenth the four plus million visitors the Grand Canyon gets. The Klamath nation still regards it as a sacred site, created long ago by a terrible battle between the Chiefs of the Above and Below Worlds that completely destroyed the mountain that stood there. Scientists believe that Mount Mazama imploded some 8,000 years ago after a series of cataclysmic eruptions to form a caldera or volcanic depression, which became the lake with an unforgettable shade of blue seen only here. New Age spiritual adherents believe that the lake is a major vortex site and the source of positive energy from the earth’s natural power grid.
Crater Lake







PROTECTION: How to Live Well as A Psychic/Clairvoyant/Empath



If you are dabbling in becoming a stronger Psychic/Clairvoyant/Empath then not to worry about Protecting yourself you'll be fine. I do recommend staying away from the Ouija Board, its an easy way to enter the negative without realizing it.

Now if you are going deep, or if you find yourself there and overwhelmed then I do recommend PROTECTION.

Some People say to imagine rose bushes around you but that always feels to static to me, it slows me down in my work, its stationary and planted. The other recommendation I hear constantly is pretend your in a shower of white light but again for me this is to static. I imagine a Nasty Bit of Business standing around waiting until the shower is over to psychically attack who's ever in the shower.




I recommend Dynamic Protection which is protection that moves with you and is functional when out in community. I imagine a blue bubble around me at all times as I walk out and about in life. I really think this works well because its a dynamic process, it creates good boundaries and it will heal anyone who passes by who is in trauma. I've done this with great success and used to have a terrible time when walking and coming upon someone who is totally messed up. I'd find my back would shake like someone walk over my grave. Now when I encounter someone who is not well I feel them and they get a healing nudge as they pass through my Healing Energy Field. And I'll say this little prayer or healing mantra: "You know and I know who you are. You know and I know that what you are doing is hurting yourself and other people. You know and I know the next time you think about it, or about to do it, you will seek help, or be caught but it will stop. It is my will, it will be, It is my will, it will be, It is my will, it will be, Bless you." Before doing this I'd carry the person's creepy or violent or abusive images and now after doing this mantra, not at all. It works very well, give it a try.

The other process of Protection I utilize is the Wolf, who has been the protector of Spirit Dream Walkers since the beginning of time. And if it starts to get sketchy in life or the dream, I howl 3xs and my wolf pack comes in. I have fourteen but if I need more then they will come, they always have and always will. You can get 32,000 come if the situation is that dyer (extremely serious or urgent!).  Please see my blog called Wolf to figure out how to do this.






A shaman once told me that I needed to create a sanctuary around my house and when I was at his place and stepped through his gate to leave, I could feel that there was something encircled his house, like a force field of protection energy. I thought "Oh a circle of energy creates sanctuary."

Then I put my genius brain into action and I started to develop away to create sanctuary around my house too.

1.) Whenever I create a Medicine/Fairy Circle of any kind I always have a wee bit of magic/prayer I attach or twine to it. Here it is "Cross my boundaries and I/It will HEAL you."  This is a wonderful way to go because you don't want to get caught up in battling anything or anyone, from anywhere big or small. If you fight them and win then they return for revenge to fight you to win, I think you can see that this whole process spells: D Y S F U N C T I O N A L. When does the wars, the battles end?
They have been going on for Billions and Billions and Billions of years. Why continue in that violence, it hasn't work in the past and it certainly won't work now.

2.) Go get some cheap cheap salt. Then take the salt and create 3 rings around your yard or in your apartment. Clock Wise or Counter Clock Wise it makes no difference (I go counter clock wise but I have Coyote/Raven opposite/backwards Medicine/Magic. Oh and when you sprinkle the salt (lightly you don't have to see it, it's meant for the other world, the dream) say "Cross this boundary, my boundary and It/I will heal you."

3.) Go to a scared place near water (this is a place you love to go to near a river, lake, ocean, spring, stream, waterfall) and talk to the stones there, tell them what you need them for and there purpose will be. Ask them for there help. The wee stone people will come gladly. You'll want to gather 13 (thirteen is a scared number) wee stones the size of your palm or smaller. Once you have those you'll need some red sand or red cedar dust again go to a place that calls you, that calls to your heart (this is how you know its scared). Now you have the two elements (you can also use crystals if you feel called to doing that, but please remember bigger is not better) go to the center of your house and place the first stone there with a little red dust. Put it in a place that'll not ever be found again. After placing the first stone walk directly out of  the house and place the next at the perimeter of your yard. Dig a small hole and place the next wee stone and red dust in it, always twining your Magic/Medicine Mantra/Prayer "If you cross my boundaries It/I will heal you) Do this around the whole house until you come back to where you started. If you are in an apartment, place the next one on the north wall. Now proceed in a clock wise or an anti clock wise position until you get back to the north wall again.

4.) If you can get your hands on "Mycelium" then make a circle around your house, or apartment with that. Remember you're not concern with it growing here but it will grow in the other world/Dream.

5.) We have wild roses growing here on the West Coast of British Columbia and Rose Stems with thorns are good for putting over all entrances, and not just the ones going outside, but bed rooms and bathrooms are good too. I'll buy tiny roses for my house ( I like flowers) and as soon as they start to wilt I turn them upside down over the doors to outside. They not only look pretty but they function as protection for you creation of Sanctuary (again remember to say the healing mantra "Cross my boundaries and It/I will heal you)

6.)  A Mandrake can be used for harm or for curing. We want to use it's wonderful healing powers to  help people not hurt anyone(if you do hurt people even if its for the right cause be aware that it is just not over in this life, you'll continue to do the "The Dance of Dysfunction" for life times. Place the Mandrake underneath the entrance door from the outside that you use most. Or put two, one for the front door and another for the back. Twine Magic/Prayer when placing them down on the chosen spots. If Mandrakes are impossible to get then find a root that speaks to you and take them home. Or in your head ask Creator/Great Spirit/God which one would work best for the purpose that you need (they'll help you).





















If you do every thing I recommended or even some you will create a safe space/sanctuary for you and your family to live in with no "Silly follow you home Spirits/Ghosts" or any "Nasty Bits of Business" dropping in. Or anything else from the "Other Worlds" that might be wanting to do a fly by, like Aliens, or anything with ill intent, with there ridiculous hidden agendas.

You know if its working because folks who have known you for a long time come for a visit and ask if you painted or done something new to spruce up the house. Or if they start falling a sleep, or yawn alot because they feel so relaxed. The other indicator is when someone comes over who is struggling hard and is not nice and is grumpy and angry, they'll won't be able to sit still and will leave quickly because they (weather they now it or not) are being healed. Lol... its a beautiful thing.


More to come.....soon.


Duende (c)


Wednesday, March 6, 2019

How to Build your Psychic/Clairvoyant/Empath Awareness




*I do not recommend Hallucinogenic for any of these exercises, in fact, it's better if you are clear headed because if some phenomena does happen you’ll blame the drugs for it happening and it’ll lessen the authenticity of your experience.

I recommend creating a ritual before each exercise, a prayer of support to the Creator (or any deity you’re happy with) to help you to be clear, strong and safe. To create an opportunity an intention for the very best to occur of the most Soul Mate part of the Mystery/Dreamtime to unfold gently before you.

Candle Exercise

You need two people and one candle to do this exercise. 

Place the candle on a coffee table or a kitchen table whichever one you feel most relaxed to you because you are going to be sitting around, staring into each other’s eyes for a long period of time.

Make sure that you will be undisturbed by any form of interruption, for at least 2 hrs.

Turn off anything that will make noise and be distracting.

Leave a window slightly ajar to create a small breeze that will affect candles flame. 

Light medium to large candle and place in the center of the table.

Turn off all lights so that it is completely dark. The darker it is the better so if you have drapes, draw them closed.

Sit on opposites sides of the candle so that you are directly facing each other and then focus your stare in each other left eye.

Do this for as long as possible without blinking.

Regulate your breathing as best you can. Slow inhale for 4 seconds, hold for 7 seconds, and exhale for 8 seconds and do this four times.

Do not panic when you start to see things that seem different and unusual move across your partner’s face. And try to perceive everything from 20 billion-year-old perspective.

Relax and control your breathing.

Do not talk to anyone in that time. Keep silent it works better.

Take breaks every ten minutes and discuss what it is you saw.

Mirror Exercise

You need one Mirror and one candle to do this exercise. If you are a novice do this exercise with a friend. 

I recommend doing this exercise in the bathroom mirror because it’s smaller and readily accessible. Also, your bathroom contains three source of water which creates energy very naturally on its own, this will add incredible boosts to your physic power.

Make sure that you will be undisturbed by any form of interruption for at least 30 minutes to one hour. Time will go by very quickly.

Turn off all devices, that will make noise and be distracting.

Turn off all lights so that it is completely dark. The darker it is the better so if you have drapes draw them closed.

Leave a door slightly ajar to create a small breeze that will affect candles flame.

Light small to medium candle and place behind you hip high if possible.

Focus your sight on your left eye when looking into the mirror.

Allow your eyes to lose focus.

Do this for as long as possible without blinking.

Regulate your breathing as best you can. Slow inhale for 4 seconds, hold for 7 seconds, and exhale for 8 seconds.

Do not panic when you start to see things that seem different and unusual move across your face remember to try and perceive everything from 20 billion-year-old perspective.

Relax and control your breathing.

Do not talk to anyone in that time. Keep silent it works better.

Take breaks every ten minutes and discuss what it is you saw.


Running Through a Forest

I recommend doing this exercise with two people. If you’re going to do it alone beware it may be extremely hazardous.

Make sure you’ve got a good solid pair of running shoes, with good ankle support.

Please be very careful when you are doing this. Let someone know where you are going to do it and set a reasonable time limit for your return.

The next thing to do is find a park or forest that has a path that you can run down quickly. A narrow path would be better but if it will fit two then that’s great too.

If you are doing this with someone else give yourselves at least a 30-second gap between each other.

Align with the wolf call him/her into you and really feel them there before you begin. Howling inside your head 3xs calls the pack to you if you’re having difficulties. You can howl outside too but I recommend being alone for that it can really scare anyone who doesn’t have any idea of what you’re doing. Besides who needs to explain anything to anyone it takes up too much time and really its none of their business.

Now what I’m about to suggest you might think is a mad idea but what I want you to do next is “Run” as fast as you can for 20 to 30 minutes. Pretending to be a Wolf, the more you are the wolf the safer you’ll be. I’ve done it and it is possible.

Allow your eyes to lose focus while still being fully aware of the path. Let the wolf guide you.

Do not talk to anyone in that time. Keep silent it works better.

Do not panic when you start to see things off to the corners or your eyes that seem different and to try perceive everything from 20 billion-year-old perspective.

This is called spirit running and it will take you into the Other-Worlds, the Dreamtime. You will be “Running Between Worlds.” It is very exhilarating and you feel and see some interesting things in the process.

Swimming at Night in The Rain and The Fog

I highly recommend that you do this with another person. Do not do it alone. Be safe.

Find a spring fed lake or the more the fresh water you can find the better. The Ocean is worth trying to but make sure it’s very dark, raining and foggy.

I recommend doing this in the late spring; summer or early fall unless you live in a climate where you can do it all year round.
Go into the water to how you feel most comfortable. Without clothes is the best but it’s not essential.

Make sure (this is the key) that it’s a rainy, foggy dark night with no wind.

Don’t go too deep. 12 feet is good enough.

Think of being a Dolphin or an Orca and call them to you, become them and allow them to guide you through this exercise.

Then start to spin and twirl and dive deep into the water with your eyes open.

Special Note * Be aware that it’ll be hard to know where the surface is, so be cautious when letting out air.

Always keep track of your buddy while swimming. Work out that you will dive 3 times and then meet. Do this for at least 20 minutes if possible.

Have necessary emergency equipment (rope, life preserver in case someone gets overwhelmed and is drowning) on shore in case. The more you take to be safe the safer you’ll be.

Standing in a Storm

You can do this alone but I recommend two people.

When there is a huge wind storm go to the edge of a cliff, or to the top of a hill, or to the shore of a lake or an ocean.

This can be done day or night. I recommend at night for best results.

Stand in the storm and think of being a huge bird; Eagle, Falcon, Condor, Raven or an Owl. Call it to you. Open and extend your arms and let the spirit that shows up lift off into the sky.

Stay out in the storm for at least 1 hr.

Do not talk to anyone in that time. Keep silent it works better.

Make sure that you can’t see your buddy.


Chanting and Drumming

In the beginning, you could go with another person to share the experience with.

Sit facing each other so that your knees are touching.

This can be done with or without a drum. I prefer having a drum it really helps me to release, let go and relax.

Make sure that you will be undisturbed by any form of interruption for at least 2 hrs.

Go into a beautiful nature, by a lake, or in a forest, near a river or an ocean.

Begin drumming slowly and follow your heart (inspiration or your creative spontaneity). Pray and ask creator for help.

Don’t worry about being right. Let that go. Be you.

Let your mouth drop open, let it relax and then trust the sounds coming from your body.

Find a sound together and move the sound up and down and around. It’s all about exploration. Go really high tones and very low deep tones. Get Crazy! Be Wild! Have Fun!

Drum slow, drum fast, allow the rhythm to find you.

Do this for at least 30 minutes and then sit in silence for 10 minutes or longer without talking.

Discuss and repeat at will.


Special Note ***Realize you may see things that you may not understand or comprehend do not panic just because it appears dark or shaded does not mean its evil. It just might mean you don’t understand it and it’s a little bit frightening/overwhelming to your pedestrian human self. We have all been scared of this process of learning, it is the unknown, it takes the time to grow and become strong. It has taken me time and I have been overwhelmed frightening myself plenty. If you have anything that is too overwhelming, please don’t hesitate to contact me by saying my name (out loud or secretly in your head) 3xs.

Finally, a Note of Caution:

Warning* I absolutely do not recommend the Ouija Board. I have used it and always found huge negative things occur around it.

If you have to use it or want to use it (now I’ve told you not to) Bless it before you use it. Create a sacred place before working with the Ouija Board, it is NOT a toy!

Duende (c)

Saturday, March 2, 2019

Super Sonic Hearing/Being Clairaudient, with Coping Mechanisms





Again I had a very deep conversation with a friend and was listening to her plight with dealing with white noise around her house and then I realized that I did too! I've been so just coping and finding solutions to my Hyper Hearing sensitivities that I didn't even know what I was doing, I just coped thinking that no one else was doing this. I was minding my own business doing and dealing with my own life style until my friend shared about her hyper sound sensitivity and I thought, "Wow WTF I deal with this too, every night!"

I have worked with folks with Autism and some of them have such a Hyper Sensitivity with there Hearing that I had to help them cope with what was going on, looking for solutions to help make there life more bearable.

For Exmaple:

My friend Danny (not his real name) is Autistic and one day when I was working with him this happened.

I was doing one to one with him in the community and we were standing outside his friends house waiting for him to come out. I had a hard day with the day job at a school I was working at helping other special needs people. It was a shit show with the other workers/employee's crazy levels of politics where there shouldn't be, manipulation and control outta the ying yang. It was driving me nuts and I was replaying the events of the day in my head. I was hurt and upset and I was mad at the out come, so I kept replaying the events and I kept getting more upset quietly not saying a word out loud, not wanting to disturb my friend Danny. Inside of my head was a different storry, I was shouting and cursing and freaking out into my self, quiet on the outside but inside really fn Loud!

"Stop yelling! Stop!" My friend yell while putting his hands over his ears.

"Danny, what's up?" I was very concerned,not yet catching on to what was going on with him because of me.

"Stop it, stop yelling!" He looked like it was hurting him.

"I wasn't yelling Dude!" I was puzzled.

"Oh I'm sorry." Danny now slumped over in relief.

"No, no my friend, I wasn't yelling out loud but I have been in my head. Did you hear all that?"

"Yes, no, oops I'm sorry." Tears came down his face.

"No Danny, it's me I'm sorry. I'm sorry I yelled so loud that it freaked you out."

"Its okay, never mind, I'm sorry."

And the night and other nights went even better and I was more careful of Danny's Extra Sensory Super Hyper Sensitive Hearing.

I'm surprised that I didn't catch on at that time with the similarities between Danny and I, but I didn't until the other night when talking to my friend.

I cannot go into Malls because the hum of the florescence lights and all those people talking and all the other white noise, escalators, elevators, and countless machines humming, aargh. I can only be in that environment for 1 hour and then I get crazy skittish.

The Olympics came to Vancouver BC and I  so wanted to go to the fun plaza and people watch but that many people is so overwhelming I get tired so fast.

On Buses, same thing occurs, Sky Trains, and where there is a group of people, it's all way to much but i push threw and cope, cause hey I'm a functional human being. LOL not! The solution I found, my coping mechanism is to put ear buds in my ears and play the music I love. I turn it up loud and I can be in mall's for hours (shopping with my Daughter lol) and walk among 10,000 people on the street in Olympic events. I can go on buses and any form of crowds without getting exhausted or messed up. I think its because like my friend Danny I can hear the unspoken noise in all the general public. I travel with my music every where and it calms me. I can drive long distances but it'll makes me so skittish and overwhelmed until I put a talking book into my CD player and then no problems I could drive for 8 hours without feeling exhausted.

Being Clairaudient is a thing that I knew about but didn't put it all together, (sometimes I can be really super genius guy and then kinda miss sometimes) until the other night. I live in an fairly quiet neighborhood in a rural town on the West Coast which I didn't realize until last night.  I prefer to be in the forest but that doesn't make me feel overwhelmed skittish, it does the opposite effect, it calms me and I'm rejuvenated, spirit filled, my central nervous quiet.

This doesn't even include spirits and them wanting to talk to me too OMG! But the music sure helps with that  too.

I have created a medicine circle around the house to deal with unwanted spirit static, I suspect I can hear them at night, the healthy ones who come by to  visit. I know this because my family hear's them too.  I can't have anything on at night especially clocks that tick as well as not being able to have any red lights from clocks, or dripping taps, or running toilets.  So,  I went to the dollar store and got 3$ ear buds, cut off the wires and wear them to sleep. It works.

I hate TV because of the commercials they drive me crazy, its the noise that happens with them not necessarily the content matter although that is mind numbing.

I wonder sometimes if we might be bombard by white noise to confuse and disorient us by forces governed by the world order, my best guess is  H.A.R.P. Its a theory and so far I don't have enough proof.

The other night with my friend, I realized again that I'm not as alone as I thought. Do you have the same things going on? Did you think it was only happening to you? What do you do to cope with this bombardment of white noise?

Friday, March 1, 2019

Are You Called To Save The World?



I thought it was just me wanting to save the world. No seriously it what I came here to do but I always thought it was just me. I'm writing this now because I had a conversation with a dear friend of mine in the Netherlands, just the other night.

She said that since she was young she'd always wanted to save the world, even though she was so young she didn't entirely know how or what to do. She just knew it was something that was calling her to do. Then she ask "Duende, do you know what I mean? Have you ever felt that way?"

Wow, wow, wow! I thought I was alone. I don't have normal goals like other folks or most folks: I'm not as interested in climbing a corporate ladder or get a house, and 6 figure wage. Having kids though was always super important to me because It's apart of continue with the legacy of life. So when my friend asked me this question about saving the world, it was a question that I never ever thought some one would ask me if I ever thought about it. Are you kidding me. I have been on this trail since I was really young, age 7 I think is when it all began for me.

My wise old dead friends (guides) asked me to figure out a "Revolution" that works. I thought about this and thought about this, for the next 20 years. Then it was a big "Ah ha moment" I don't think of it myself, I probably read it somewhere but I figure out a "Revolution" that works because mostly always "Revolutions" do not work. They start off with grandeous idea's and ideals with passionate people and then it is documented that most "Revolution's" that revolt from oppression of awful tyranny become worse when they gain power than the power they over threw. I finally found the answer: the only "Revolution" that works is when you take the "R" out of it and it stead of "Revolution" it turns into "Evolution" and that'll work.

That's the first I knew of what new I had to do. Most people think that this has got to be the most crazy thing to do. Fuck it! I'm crazy, happily so. I'm doing it. This was my answer to my friend:

I have a connection with the "White Botherhood" or "The Warriors of the Light" strictly other world peoples, they are magical people who come down and assist me in the middle of the night around 2 or 3 oclock in the morning. I always know it was them because I (still happening) and wake up with my heart beating so fast, and feeling in the other world with  an heightened energy, it was over the roof.
I'd gone on my first "Vision Quest" and met 101 "White Robes" (with gold sashes around there waist). The first times I've met them in such numbers but before that I've seen them in 3's and 6's.

I'd just came back from a circle when everyone was talking about at end times and Captain Ashtar would come down and save only "144,00" people. I know humanity only to well and I know who'd be on that ship, all "A Type" personalities all Alpha all over the top and mostly probably the odds are that kindness was not going to be at the top of the most wanted list.

I turned to my other world friends "The White BotherHood" and asked if that name means that they were from a the "White Pointed Hat White Cape", cross burning guys?" They laughed and said, "Oh no Duende, no not at all." I smiled and sighed with big relief. "Okay here's my question?" They laughed again (in a good way), " Ask Little One" (thats what they call me)

"Who gets to go?"

"What?"

"At the end times, who gets to go?"

"Anyone with Hope in there heart."

"Even my special needs friend, that don't look so good, that most people have trouble looking at?"

"Yes even them."

"How many?"

"As many as you can touch."

"If you give me enough time, I'll touch the world. Does the whole world get to go?"

"Little One, if you can touch the whole world, then they get to go. "

"Okay, then I'll do it. "

"Yes Little One we think you will."

My friend sat there in silence for a long time and we knew we knew, something was going on.

That's my most crazy story, (well one of them, haha I've got many wonderous out there stories) and now what about you out there, readers? Have you, like my Netherlander friend and I, have you got this same calling? I always thought that I had this passion by my own self and yes I sometimes I think I'm delusional but I don't stop. I'll let people deal with climate change, and deal with recycling but for me, me, I'm here to deal with HOPE in the SOUL. That is my goal. Do you smell what I'm cooking! This is the core of me, of my being, everywhere I go, whatever I do, that's why I do this blog, to grow HOPE from the DEPTHS of my SOUL to YOURS.

Duende (c)

As Soon As Enlightenment is Achieved, Life is Easy?



When I was thirty and beginning on my path of spiritual enlightenment would around for Mentors. People that had gone the distance and really done the work: The Dali Lama, Wayne Dyer and Desmond Tutu, Lady Dianna, Mother Teresa but I quickly realize that these folks were huge in the world media and what did I really know about them. The only things I really know about them is whatever there Media profiles were putting out about them and not they weren't amazing peoples I needed to know someone personally, someone who I could talk to, who didn't appear perfect and was more human because what did I know about these ICONS other than what I was being told. I was looking for a Mentor, someone I could talk to and be with. I found these people and some were Native Elders and others were my parents and friends of our family and some were children, oh and my special needs friends. What could I possibly learn from the special needs community? Tolerance, Acceptance and Empathy. They are and have always been the masters at this but I didn't come to this realization until way down the path of my journey into spiritual enlightenment.

I looked to my goal, which was to be at peace and at one with the universe. No stress with losta Bliss!
To walk graciously, humbly head bow, liken to a Monk helping people wherever I may go. In the  joy of spirit, in the knowing of being one with all things, all beings, creatures big and small, spiders and ants, even cockroaches!

I'd started my journey at the minute I was born but I didn't know this until I became enlightened haha.
So I began with learning on how to be a "Deep Trance Channel" and then the native path, doing vision quests (been on 5 of these, 3 of my own and 2 that I had facilitated) and sweats(at least 40 or more) and drumming and healing circles (countless of these) because it called to me. It doesn't matter which path you go down "They're many path through the forest to get you to the other side," this was the one calling to me. As I continued along my journey I have look and poked around many different belief modalities I even became a Steven Minister with the United Church (This is a counseling outreach program for support with people inside or outside of the Church who are experiencing loss of a loved one, potential depression leading to suicide, split family who were struggling etc.).

The difficulty I had with all these modalities is that everyone wants the Seer, The Healer, The Wiseman, The Prophet, quiet with head bowed in humility, like the Dali Lama! But I am a performer, and am loud, over the top, out outrageous, quick to laugh loudly and enjoy a good joke. So I was waking on a path to become the opposite to who I am? This all seem counter productive and in juxtaposition, it would seem to me to be cutting off my nose to despite my face. Crazy as it may seem I did try to fix myself into this world view of being spiritual. On my first vision quest I was told by creator that I wasn't a medicine man, or a shaman but a "Holy Man"! Aggrh WTF! That is not what I had gone on the vision quest for, I wanted spiritual quiet enlightenment what was I going to do being a "Holy Man"? People had trouble with me now, I was the total opposite to what that was! Or was I?
The words Holy Man is a big Hole to drop all the stereotypes into and become who you are not what the World perceives you SHOULD be. When you go on a vision quest you don't find out "Who You ARE Not", you find out "Who You ARE".

So now I'm almost 60 I've become enlightened and what have I found out: Life is hard, there are wonderful moments so cherish them and some times being spiritual sucks!! I started on my journey before enlightenment chopping wood and carry water and now that I am enlightened I chop wood and carry water. Or "It takes a lot of shit to make a great garden and I have a huge garden!!"

I help people everyday and absolutely practice random acting of kindness but am I rich? No. Do I struggle? Yes. Is life Still tough? Oh yes, however there is a joy of life in me that has been there my whole life (because it always has been,) its who I am but the only difference now is I know. Spiritual enlightenment is worth attaining but its not easy as it looks.

As Soon As Enlightenment is Achieved, Life is Easy? It's easier to be you.