Tuesday, July 16, 2019

Negative Thoughts - What to Do with Your Voices in Your Head

Hearing Voice in your head is not Schizophrenia, its just stress and depression going viral.



I suspect strongly if everyone could admit to having voices in there head you'd find everyone has them...well at least in Western Mental Culture anyway and I think that its a normality amongst us. The abnormal behavior is the folks lying and pretending that they are all fine  = Fucked up, Insecure, narcotic and emotional. In fact if I here someone say that they're fine more that 3xs I begin to suspect there mental stability. 

I've named my voices in my head. Let me introduce you to many family, there's: Paranoid Pete, Doubt Thomas, Narcotic Nancy and Critical Karen... aaaargh...they drive me crazy. Well almost. I started naming them to recognize and identify the negative input and silly suggestive, subliminal conversation that go on. And then I got this idea, after naming them to hug them when they are really loud and unrelenting. LOL. This is what I call having a relationship with the dark side. It helps a wee bit. At least I'm no longer trying to make them go away. There a part of me, for whatever reasons and it seems the older i get the louder they get, or it could be the diabetic pharmaceuticals I'm on that keep fueling the crazy relentless blitherings of the "Blah, Blah, Blah de Blah blah Blah Gang!". They are not with me all the time. Oh no, they show up at 10pm to 12 and 8 to 10 ....depending on when I go to sleep or wake up.

I've tried many things to shut them up. Praying (sort of works) Music (works quite well, till you turn it off) Confornting and Destorying the Gang (and they are back in my next breath and finally I hug them in my imagination(this too sort of works but leaves me in a better space. I've even yelled at them and told them to shut up! (This, this does not work at all). They create so much chaos and anxiety in my head that I will have sleepless nights of worry and then when I wake up? All that was said doesn't end up happening. Aaargh! Its like its "False Information Appearing Real." WTF. Now when I hear any of them firing off about how bad the next day will be and how much trouble I'm in and how alone I'll be. I tell them that they've said all that before and I know its not true and then I go to sleep, wake up in the morning and sure enough all there bullshit was False. This strategy of mine is not fool proof but it does work most of the time. At least I know longer try to argue with words but now I talk to folks n hug them sometimes. Its a way I guess to love myself, all parts, even the ones I'm not so proud of.



I always imagine a fast running river and I sink into it and allow the river to take me to the bottom and at the bottom of the river its very, very quiet and deep and peaceful. Not like the surface,  which is fast flowing and full of ideas, and life's day to day problems and conflicts. I lie on the bottom on  my back and watch the world and all that crazyness speed by and I enjoy witnessing it, at the bottom in stillness.




So lovely and peaceful.