Rabbit Hole Ramblings - Invisible Man

I believe in "Dream Walking" which means I am in the "Dreamtime" 24/7, all the time. I walk when I sleep and I dream when I walk in the waking world. Its all a dream, and I believe that magic can happen in that state. So I'm constantly zoning out (zoning in is more like it)  in my spiritual practice. I'd wondered if "Vanishing" is a possibility while "Dream Walking."  I always wait for at least 3 examples of any one phenomena before I say anything to anyone of this: My new vanishing hypothesis. 

The incidences I'm recounting are over a period of 19 years.

Below are examples of highly possible times when this exact vanishing happening has occurred:

1)  I went to the Video store (lol years and years ago) with my 5 year old daughter. I was very tired and my daughter has always been very super sensitive. I'd left her to pick out a video but it always took her alot of time to pick one out. So I left her on the floor checking out her options and moved 10 ft over to her left but in plain sight. I know her Anxiety  is really high, so I'm always careful not to freak her out. I was in easy sight for the both of us.

It was then I look up at the preview of videos TV that they had on. That's when I zoned and in the exact moment not seconds after I zoned my daughter cried out. 

"Dad? Dad. daddy!! Where'd you go? DAD!!!!"

I said, "What, sweety I'm right here. Are you okay?"

I didn't get mad, (I know she's a sensitive miss) and soothed her as much as we I could. We rented her video and we left. 

On the car ride home, my daughter was in the back seat and I said to her, "Sweety?"

"Yeah Daddy?" 

"Did Daddy go away when he was beside you?"

"No Dad."

Okay I knew something had happened but I didn't want to put words in her mouth. "Sweety, did Daddy disappear?" 

"Disappear Daddy, what?

I realized she probably didn't know what "disappear" meant. "You know sweety, one minute Dads there and then he's gone? Is that what might have happened?"

"Yes Dad you did that." My 4 year old answered less confused and more self-assured than I might have liked in that moment. I really was hoping I hadn't vanished. I always concerned of messing with her wee brain.  

2) This was not the first time I thought I might have vanished from this world but I like to make sure. I've startled people when riding my bike (mountain bikes are not quiet, especially mine  lol)  and wondered, "Aren't they paying attention?" And we all know the answer to that, if they are a human being the chances of anyone of them paying attention is.....almost zero. So I didn't count any of those examples of me in stealth zoney vanished mode, Until: 

I rounded a corner, coming outta the bush (aka forest) and rounded up onto the power lines and no sooner had I done this then, BWAM!! I surprise 3 coyotes. I rode right up to them and they had no idea that I was there until I was on them, 3 of them. WTF! 

Its an easy thing to ride and surprise human beings at anytime (we as a race are not the sharpest knives in the drawer) but How do you do that to coyotes, who are the most cunning of hunters. How then can you sneak up on them? So now after vanishing with my daughter I suspected every time I zoned I'd vanish from this world, here in are reality and go I'm not sure were, but not certainly not here.

3) I started playing my digeridoo because I find out it can help cure sleep apnea (google it, its true) and play for approx. 30min to 1 hour a day. 

About once a week I take my "Digeridoo" down to the beach and play, have fun and make music but most of all I love to let go and move into the "Zone," from the world, the pandemic and all the worlds anxiety, and mine. 

I'd been playing for 35min when a women and her boy came along the beach from the big rocks and the Mom, yelled out when she got up to me. 

"Whaaaaaaa!!!" She exclaimed!

"Are you alright!?" I asked. More worry about her and what was going on. 

"I didn't see you," She was trying to calm down. 

I really really startled her. "I'm out in the open, playing, its not like I'm hidden."

"Yes," she said " I know, I can see, but I didn't see you at all, I could here the music but I didn't see you until I was almost tripping over you!?" 

I calmed her down and they went on there way.

I believe now that I go into the "Zone" and I dissappear from this world. Where do I go? I have no idea... yet but one day I will and when I do I'll write about it.

Duende Naddred 2021 (c)

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